What's the Dish Silver Fish!

I love being random, just in case you couldn't tell. I have no idea what the title means, but it has good rhythm and it rhymes, so I'm happy =D <--- see that's my happy face =D

I honestly don't have anything in particular to post about tonight. I don't have any marvelous revelations like I did last week about this time, or any amazingest stories to regale you with. My thoughts aren't particularly well put together either unfortunately. I feel so boring! Last semester was this incredible time and this semester seems to have just flown by with out much to show for it. I feel like I didn't do anything this semester, nothing worth doing anyway. Like maybe I got caught up in myself even though that is exactly what I aimed not to do.

I feel as though I wasn't as involved this semester with Crusade as I could have been, I didn't do enough... but that's not really true either. Truth is I've done everything this semester that I did last semester and missed a couple events because of snow. Snow is irritating that way. Seems as though I've missed something, something important. I missed making a difference some where. My desire has been to serve and encourage, but have I done that really? I suppose, but only a few could say.

I've been able to minister to friend who has found herself in... three or four, now, rough situations. Most of which she didn't get herself into. I can't even begin to tell you what a joy it has been for me to offer her what little wisdom the Lord has granted me to give to others. I haven't had that kind of opportunity since I moved to Pueblo, two years ago next month. Holy cow! I've been here two years! Who'duh thunk it. I find so much joy in helping people, encouraging them and lifting them up. I used to prophesy over people, that was fun. I don't do that anymore due to an unfortunate and rather doubt planting confrontation with someone that I love. But there was something to that which was amazing and joyous. To listen to God say how much they loved so-and-so and then tell them. It fires me up and gives me life and passion. To tell someone that they can be strong because God is strong in them and he loves them, and he's with them. To watch a person's strength grow even as you speak to them.

But I didn't see what I expected to see this semester. I expected to see God do more, which is certainly not to say that he hasn't been doing anything. We have tons of people coming to JiB now, it's been incredible! God has definitely been working. Chelsea, my dear friend, has grown enormously since I met her last semester, and she is this beautiful, radiant young woman of God. She is not nearly so timid as she used to be, she has confidence where she didn't before, and purpose where is was lacking. She's so much stronger now, as a believer, a lover of the living God. But there were people that I really expected to see something incredible happen with, and it didn't. Did I expect too much, or just not what God had planned on? I know for certain his plans and mine are very different most of the time.

I don't know, but I feel the Lord pulling at me like he wants to do something, something he's all excited about. Like "hey, come look, come look at thins". Or like my nephew who runs up to me "Auntie K! LOOK!" which by the way is really adorable. Maybe this is it, what I've been waiting for expectantly. He's finishing the semester out with a BANG! I know how he loves to come in at the last minute and do something fantastic, maybe this is it. What do you think? What is God about to do?

What about you friend? What is God doing in your life that he hasn't done before? Do you feel him pulling you? I can guarantee it with out a doubt that he is. When the King pulls one member of the body, the whole body moves. Did you know that in order for you to walk your head moves first, ever so slightly, but your head starts the motion forward for you to be able to walk. Your whole body follows the slight pull of one part. God does the same thing. So if he's pulling at me, how is he pulling at you? We'll have to pay attention together =)